This is a topic I hold near and dear to my heart, mainly because I developed mine so earlier on in life. I will say it is a blessing and and curse to be so comfortable in your own skin. By that I mean you really are free, to not give a fuck about what anyone thinks, however it always met with a huge amount of recourse. Usually by the way of mean girls, that in all my dealings have no self esteem of their own and choose to unscrew someone else light bulb in order to make themselves actually shine. Sadly it only shows how really dim they are in the long run. These very same girls, and yes they are girls that never grow into women, marry boys that beat them, abuse them both physically and mentally just because they are rich or good looking. All of which is very telling on the girls lack of character and ability to see what would make a good relationship.
Again as I mentioned before I developed my high self esteem early on, when the mean girls in school tried to undermine me, unsuccessfully, as they have all gone on to have multiple divorces, become addict’s, and some have even now switched over to being lesbians hoping for a better life without men 40 years later. Well honey if it took you this long to figure out that you like ladies, first of all I pity you; but it just sounds like a disparate attempt to explain away your sad life choices. Maybe you just need some really good therapy, because my intro in psychology classes that I took in college they explained this type of drastic life decision is made after years of rape, abuse and beatings from that drunk ass man you supposedly loved.
My self esteem came into play early on, when I finally realized that no one could ever make me feel small or worthless again. I have told the stories about working for a modeling agency where I would never be thin enough, and yes that played into my development of self esteem. When you realize they are never going to like you; you will never be good enough for them, you finally say fuck it, and live your own life. No blow job will get you what you want, no hand job gets you that next rung on corporate ladder, you will always be selling your soul for the next thing no matter who you are; male or female, so you might as well get ready to take up the ass if this is how you plan on getting there. You will always be someones bitch in this world.
The minute you learn to walk away, and not take the proverbial carrot, the better off you are going to be in life. The quicker that you can figure out this life lesson the better, in my experience. This also applies in your committed married life, whether you are gay, straight, bi, pan or whatever; you still have to have some kind of self esteem in the relationship and not just be a doormat for your partner. Some of the most pathetic relationships, and people I have ever met are doormats, and stay that way for the sake of the marriage or the kids. While I can understand a good feisty marriage with some sparring and disagreements; because no one wants a boring vanilla marriage of servitude. You can not have a marriage of daily beatings either, that is the one thing I would never stand for, I assure you. I am one of those special kind of fillies, that takes a very special man; not any man could handle me. Think, a Beth Dutton and Rip Wheeler kind of relationship from Yellowstone, yeah it is like that. Most “men” would not stand a chance with me at this point, or even have the balls to get near me; which is fine by me, besides you need to be a real man, not a man child, which is what most of them are these days anyways, with their oversized man buns and grizzly Adams beards (beards- in more ways than one- I mean you ladies, you are their beards so many are having bromances behind your back).
My mother always taught me long ago, no man or person is ever stronger than you. You just need an equalizer. That equalizer can be a lot of things, from an actual weapon, knowledge, or power. The entire idea is that you have to level the playing field between you and the individual that wishes to do you harm. By harm that could mean physical, emotional, or just being a daily cunt bag that causes you problems all the time. Believe me I know plenty of cunt bags, that think they shady and getting away with doing things behind the scenes, but somehow it always gets back to me. I just redirect all of it right back to them, tenfold, as it should be, return that shit to sender. Karma will always get you bitch, you know who you are, and never scorn a witch; we will plant a root on you so fast your children’s children won’t ever see straight. That being said; live right, keep your nose clean, keep peace love and light in your heart; and always remember, never cross me because you will eventually pay! The crows have eyes…
“No more shall the birds or the beasts seek to harm me”,
Veronica J.