Jealousy is a funny thing, and so worth a good musing. It comes in all forms and some very unexpected forms like family, and what you may consider to be your inner circle of close friends. I know over the many years both of these circles have grown leaner and leaner as those around me have shown their true intentions.
It wasn’t until the past 10 years or so that it really surfaced and I noticed that as our little families personal wealth and status went up that the green eyed monster reared its ugly head. I noticed it across the board with my so called friends and family members. One would think if they truly loved us they would be happy for our good fortune, however that was not the case. Have you ever has a friend say to you and I quote “I really want to be happy for you, but I just can’t. It is too painful for me to see you so happy.” I mean what the fuck do you do with a statement or a friend like that? Just start my desensitization process now, please! We have worked very hard in our lives, and nothing was ever just handed to us.
It became glaringly obvious that we were considered snobs, and were not the same as we had once been. Which was not the case at all, while we may have gotten a new address in a larger home it did not change our core values. Then when we decided after years of owning an older vehicle, compared to their basic yearly leases of Jaguars, BMW’s and Mercedes, to purchase a very high end sports car we became “judgmental elitists”. Okay, are you the pot or the kettle in the scenario friend?
The bottom line is everyone makes choices in their lives, which moves and drives their lives forward. If you do not like where your life has ended up, maybe re-evaluate those choices you have made, because that is on you, not those around you! Where someone ends up based upon their specific choices is how they choose to drive their life, not how someone else railroaded them, or forced them to become something they are not. Even by choosing not to make a choice you are actually making a “non choice” in your own life. So stop blaming others for your bad decisions, it is all on you, and don’t be jealous when others that made better choices, have a better life.
I personally think this is really what is wrong with society today, and lack of people owning their own shit, and being held accountable for their own actions. If you raise a shitty kid because your were a crap parent that is on you, and if they want nothing to do with you, maybe it is because you were a crap parent. Quit blaming the kid, you raised them! If your sibling OD’s because they always had a drug problem and refused to get help, that is on them. If they are not ready to stop and change they never will. If your family hates you because you are successful, and you refuse to pay to help free them from their financial debts and woes all the time, when it is not your responsibility, that is on them!
Jealousy comes in so many forms, and from those you would really think would be happy for you; but secretly they just want you to be miserable just like them; and your happiness makes them jealous. What is that old saying, misery loves company? Yeah I have learned it is so true! The minute our little family was happy and content, cue the world to try and take it all away from us. Which is why I quit sharing so much information on social media, since I was told I was simply “showing off and gloating”! Okay so it is fine for the rest of the world to do this, but not me? So I get targeted for my happiness? Fine you will never see my shit again, I maybe living the best possible life, jet setting around the world, but you will never know, because apparently it hurts you so much! Ridiculous! I do not need your approval to make me feel whole, or drive my happiness, I was sharing because I thought you would want to know what I was doing with my life, but apparently it is just a form of a weapon against you. So now you know nothing, enjoy being in the dark as you were for so long, and now you will continue to be for the rest of the time I know you, or at this point don’t know you.
So my friends, keep your circles small, know thy enemy since they come in all kinds of forms; and who says you have to keep them close? I prefer to no longer have any contact with my enemies; even if mine continue to stalk me, yes I know that you do, heck we all know that you do!
President of The Inner Circle,
Veronica J.