Expectations are a funny thing if you really think about it. We have them for ourselves, our family, our children, and our community. We expect others to live by a code of ethics, set forth by whom? Our parents, community, government, churches, schools, social media influence’s? Who exactly is molding society and into what exactly these days? Have you ever really thought about it?

The entire idea is a little mind boggling at best, and makes you wonder who is really driving this bus? In such a busy world where mom & dad hand off a device to kids while driving from place to place; who is digitally raising your kids? The other day I was having a phone conversation with my husband as he drove and I realized with all the crazy drivers, he could barely hold a conversation on his hand-free device. So go ahead and relate that to having young kids in the car. You probably are not listening to what they are viewing, watching, subliminal learning. Then when they grown into 28 year nothings that still live in your basement don’t be surprised, or even worse move their entire family back in with them!

I also got mad at my husband for not listening to me while we were on the phone. In all honesty I realized I was just providing a mindless distraction for him as he drove, much like the radio; I might as well have just been NPR. Then I realized this was probably the root of many of our arguments over the years. Discussions I had with him while I was engaged, but he was not. He was checked out just using my voice to self soothe in the stress of a driving situation like meditation, but not hearing or retaining a word I had said. While this is very hurtful to me; I can certainly empathize with where he is at out of the battlefield of life. However, this is what we do to others without even giving it a second thought, leaving those of us that are giving 100% left to feel less than all the time, dismissed and overlooked. This is how marriages end folks, and you don’t even see it coming because you are just in a basic survival mode.

I think these expectations bleed into so many parts of our lives. While many of us may be operating at a higher level or our best, others which are the masses, may just be surviving day in and day out. Walking around like zombies though their lives, sadly. Clinging to the source of light and brightness they can find, and killing it in the process because of the shadow of pure disappoint they cast over it. If you are a light barer, like I am, you have to protect yourself from the sludge and darkness. It will try to pull you down and snuff out your light from with in, so you have to protect it at all cost. If you are reading this and have no idea what I speak of.. then you probably are sadly just another moth to the flame. You see true light bearers will know this burden, as we have carried it for our entire lives, we are so attractive to the darkest of dark entities and they all dive right into our lives whether we like it or not. There is nothing we can do about this, but guard our souls and protect our light, while continuing to guide and help those that are lost on their way. You see it is their journey not ours, we just bare the witness and see all that pass before us, whether it is good or bad.

This is why I use the word expectations, because I have, as of late, given up on having them for most of man kind. I grew up with a basic set of values or ethics, instilled in me by my parents, school, and community but what I once knew has been systematically destroyed over the years. I find myself more and more disenchanted with society and the self absorbed lives humans live. The darkness this planet promotes and the pure evil that lurks around every corner now. No empathy for others, no common ground, seeing things only in black or white in such a polarized environment, are we near the end? It would be of our own making.

Earth Bound Goddess of Light,

Veronica J.